posted by LYN at
8:26 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2001
Friday, November 09, 2001
Get thee away from me, thou evil exam monsters.
GP. Not too Good. Vacillating between "It'll be ok." and "AAAAARRRRGGGH!".
GP. Not too Good. Vacillating between "It'll be ok." and "AAAAARRRRGGGH!".
posted by LYN at
2:55 AM
Wednesday, November 07, 2001
Hovering on the edge.
Exams. Impending.
Read a blog entry that made me wonder. She (forgot link :( ) was looking back on her old entries and was utterly horrified by her seeming self-centredness at worrying about her exams, devoting entire entries to her feelings then.
Is that wrong? True, there are bigger problems in the world now, but honestly, those are not my problems. Of course my problems seem more important to me, and it is perfectly natural that my world revolves around me. Why not? Is there anything I can do about the problems in Afghanistan? No. Is there a way for me to stop hate and racism, apart from ensuring that I don't hate anyone because of the colour of their skin, and to make sure that racist jokes stop with me? No.
So why should I snap out of my self-centred state of mind? Yes, I will do my best to be considerate to those around me. I will keep unnecessary comments to myself. I will look before I leap, think before I speak, and generally try to be a good person. Even if I have to think bad thoughts and accumulate bad karma, I will try not to inflict any on someone else. Basically, I will do what I can.
But don't expect me to say: oh, someone else is having worse problems than me, therefore I should be grateful for whatever suffering I am recieving now. I agree that we should have compassion, that we should not take what we have for granted. But I doubt I will ever be a social activist and crusader for human rights. Unless, of course, it affects me directly. I have had it with solving other people's problems just because they cannot be bothered to do anything themselves. Case in point: my juniors, who asked me for help with 'orientation logistics.' Read: think about what we need, get what we need, on your own time, while we go for bubble tea.
Why should I get involved in something that is, really, none of my business? You can only help others if you are in a position to help in the first place. And everyone has problems of their own.....
But on a separate note, I also wonder if I am indeed, what the world calls selfish. The concept of selflessness is one which I have not managed to grasp..... apart from with those I really love. :) I'll do anything for you.
Anyway. Hovering on the edge of exams. I am glad, because they will all be over soon. Yes, I know that it's one month more, but time flies while you're having fun, ya? And exams are fun. Hehe. I actually like taking them. Sick? Maybe.
Ah, life is beautiful. Yes, it's one of those happy days again.
(apologies for incoherence)
Exams. Impending.
Read a blog entry that made me wonder. She (forgot link :( ) was looking back on her old entries and was utterly horrified by her seeming self-centredness at worrying about her exams, devoting entire entries to her feelings then.
Is that wrong? True, there are bigger problems in the world now, but honestly, those are not my problems. Of course my problems seem more important to me, and it is perfectly natural that my world revolves around me. Why not? Is there anything I can do about the problems in Afghanistan? No. Is there a way for me to stop hate and racism, apart from ensuring that I don't hate anyone because of the colour of their skin, and to make sure that racist jokes stop with me? No.
So why should I snap out of my self-centred state of mind? Yes, I will do my best to be considerate to those around me. I will keep unnecessary comments to myself. I will look before I leap, think before I speak, and generally try to be a good person. Even if I have to think bad thoughts and accumulate bad karma, I will try not to inflict any on someone else. Basically, I will do what I can.
But don't expect me to say: oh, someone else is having worse problems than me, therefore I should be grateful for whatever suffering I am recieving now. I agree that we should have compassion, that we should not take what we have for granted. But I doubt I will ever be a social activist and crusader for human rights. Unless, of course, it affects me directly. I have had it with solving other people's problems just because they cannot be bothered to do anything themselves. Case in point: my juniors, who asked me for help with 'orientation logistics.' Read: think about what we need, get what we need, on your own time, while we go for bubble tea.
Why should I get involved in something that is, really, none of my business? You can only help others if you are in a position to help in the first place. And everyone has problems of their own.....
But on a separate note, I also wonder if I am indeed, what the world calls selfish. The concept of selflessness is one which I have not managed to grasp..... apart from with those I really love. :) I'll do anything for you.
Anyway. Hovering on the edge of exams. I am glad, because they will all be over soon. Yes, I know that it's one month more, but time flies while you're having fun, ya? And exams are fun. Hehe. I actually like taking them. Sick? Maybe.
Ah, life is beautiful. Yes, it's one of those happy days again.
(apologies for incoherence)
posted by LYN at
8:49 PM
Tuesday, November 06, 2001
Awwww.
Damn I thought I was Goth-er than this. Should have taken this after the exams when I go out with Wenn and Jenni. *pout*
I AM 35% GOTH.
Damn I thought I was Goth-er than this. Should have taken this after the exams when I go out with Wenn and Jenni. *pout*
I AM 35% GOTH.
Goth ny night, normal by day. Deep in my
heart I know I am evil, but not on the
company's time. I do need to eat.
Take the GOTH Test at Fuali.com!
